70 miles per hour

| May 12, 2013 | 4 Replies

Driving home from the Grub Street conference last Sunday, I worked my camera with my right hand and the steering wheel with my left. The Cinco de Mayo sun made its languid descent over southbound traffic, casting trees and shrubbery in unprejudiced glow. The hula girl on the dashboard chuckled at me. Who tries to capture the landscape while driving 70 miles per hour?hula girl on the dashboard chuckling

I’ve been eager to capture everything this spring. The yard that fills with crocuses in March.

crocuses

The pale April halo of the willow tree in the bank parking lot.

pale April halo

The flock of forsythia on the hill.

flock of forsythia

It’s easier on my bicycle than in my car. Some days, I’ll stop for anything. A shock of green against gray thickets.

shock of green

An early dandelion sighting.

dandelion

Whatever is beautiful and just beginning.

anything beautiful that's just beginning

I’m storing up spring in New England like a woman who might have to give it up. Come September I hope to be teaching part time and writing more, so we’ll move wherever David finds a full time job. He craves the adventure of living Somewhere Entirely Different. I’m crossing every finger and toe that we’ll stay here.

a cheap opportunity to use an engagement photo

It’s not something we argue about. We know only one of us will get what we want; we trust we’ll both get what we need. Meanwhile, uncertainty is doing its essential work in me. The message came on a tea bag a month ago. I stapled it into my journal. A week later, I found it on the china cabinet at Willa’s house. Wherever you go, go with all of your heart.

journal

Willa's china cabinet

I’ve begun gathering my heart back into myself. Clasping small hands at recess, knowing they’ll play on without me.

recess

Savoring birthdays at book club like they’re the last I’ll see.

book club birthdays

And taking pictures. Not just of bright yellow blossoms but of dandelions gone to seed.

dandelions gone to seed

I’ve nursed a newfound obsession with deteriorating floral arrangements.

deteriorating flower arrangements

deteriorating flower arrangements

deteriorating flower arrangements

The end of things has become as beautiful as the beginning.

the end of things

The Muse & the Marketplace conference was a garden in full bloom. The soil of the Boston Park Plaza teemed with writers and people who love writers.

Eve Bridburg addresses the Muse attendees

Thank heaven for my blue volunteer t-shirt, and the chance to say, “Can I help you?” over and over again. All along I really wanted to say, We belong to each other. You are mine and I am yours and laughable as it seems we will express things no one has expressed before.

posing with my fellow volunteers

I didn’t take many pictures. It’s harder to explain yourself to strangers than it is to explain yourself to a tree.

tree

Besides, there comes a point when spring takes over so fully that you lose all hope of cataloguing its splendors. Leaves nose out from their branches like Seussian elephants.

like Seussian elephants

The lilacs weary of holding back fragrance.

lilacs, wearied

A week after the conference, I cradle my name badge with reverence. What is a grammar floozy? A woman who cozies up with The Elements of Style in lingerie or a woman who’s fast and easy with split infinitives?

Hannah Lynn Mell, Grammar Floozy

Wherever we go, there won’t be another writer’s community like Grub Street. Few organizations of any kind manage to dance so nimbly between professional powerhouse and creative feel goodery.

Sean, volunteer coordinator, takes center stage

I cherished the conference the way I’ve cherished this spring. So good. So fleeting.

cherry blossoms

The marvel of being human is that we transplant easily enough. With proper care, we’ll bloom in any climate. Every flower has to fall eventually. Who doesn’t love treading blossoms beneath her feet?

treading fallen blossoms

The marvel of being human is that we try to capture things that cannot be captured. Words. Pictures. You get as close as you can and then throw up your hands and stop trying. Even when you’re sitting still, it might as well be flying by at 70 miles per hour.

flying by

Category: beauty, creating, love, outside, the seasons

Hannah Lynn Mell

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Hannah Lynn Mell grew up a missionary kid in Kailua-Kona, Hawaii. Now she lives in Rowley, Massachusetts with her exquisitely kind husband David, their plucky three-legged cat Thomas, and a needy-yet-lovable dachshund named Birdie. She's worked with singers since 1998 and loves to help people of all ages free their voices.

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  1. Catherine says:

    I love the picture of our Book Club ladies! It captures our evenings so well 🙂 Let’s do Grub Street together?

  2. Mum says:

    DEAR HANNAH, THIS IS CINDY PATRICK. I’M A BLOG NOVICE HAVING ONLY SEEN ONE BLOG BEFORE YOUR MOTHER SHOWED ME YOURS. I WANT TO SAY HOW MUCH I HAVE ENJOYED IT AND JUST SO YOU KNOW, I FINISHED YOUR FLOWER ABOUT 10 MINUTES AGO FOLLOWING YOUR EXCELLENT INSTRUCTIONS.

    BUT WHAT TOOK THE CAKE WAS YOUR PHOTOS OF THE DETERIORATING FLORAL ARRANGEMENTS. WE BOTH LAUGHED SO HARD–SOMETHING ABOUT THOSE PHOTOS TRULY ENDEARED YOUR HEART TO MINE.

    MUCH LOVE, CINDY

    PS COLORADO IS A WILD TANGLE OF BEAUTY!

  3. Mum says:

    Oh yes it was, CindyLu!
    Spring upon spring! Loverly ;o)
    Hanner, we had a delightful time reminiscing on your beauty now
    and way back then when you were budding!
    Listening now to John Denver sing, about how good it is to Be Back Home Again.
    Next week it will be wonderful to be back at your little Home,
    hugs,
    Mama

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